According to Pinterest I pinned this very photo 12 weeks ago. 12 weeks ago I was going to the gym 5 days a week at school and recording everything I ate on The Daily Plate. I was a few pounds away from reaching my goal weight and ready to transition from school to summer. This photo couldn't be more wrong.
I got home, stopped working out, and stopped heating healthy. This happens every time I get close to my goal weight. Why in the world do I give up at the last minute every time? This fall I gained some weight once I got to school then spent the next 3 months trying to lose it. Once I lost 10 lbs I came home for winter break and gained it all back again. Only to spend the rest of the school year trying to lose it again. And there I go, gaining it all back once I came home for the summer. This makes me wonder how people used to stay in shape back in the "olden days".
Its so hard, though. I am always hungry. Some people crave sweets, but I can bake my little heart out and only have a bite to make sure the flavor is right. I crave foods with lots of bread and cheese. For example, pizza and bacon egg and cheese bagels. Pizza is a huge enemy of mine, but i love it so so much. See where this is going? Its not just a little boredom thing where I eat when I have nothing to do. I get seriously hungry for a meal about every 2 hours. Why me?!
I apologize for the rant people. This is just a reoccurring problem that really frustrates me. It is difficult to have to argue with myself every two hours on if I should eat or not. On a more positive note, I went for a 2 mile run this morning! I set my alarm yesterday for 7:30 am to go for run and of course I hit snooze. So, when I woke up at 5:30 today to make Alec's lunch and breakfast for him before he goes to work I didn't go to bed after. Instead, I went for my first run in months. I hate running. It is very difficult for me. Going at 6:30 makes it easy for me to fit it in my schedule and doesn't give me a chance to make excuses. The sun was rising and it was great to be doing something good for my body for once. I did have to walk quite a bit though. If you read this far, thank you. I know I don't usually do rants like this but, I'm only human and I struggle with weight issues just like everyone else.
Do you have any of these same problems? How do you deal with juggling eating healthy and eating what you want, and forcing yourself to exercise?